Well it's time! It's been long over due...

It is time for my weight to no longer hold me back. It is time for me to get back in control of my life and make the changes that will allow me to become the man I've always expected myself to be instead of the scared little boy I've continued to become!

So with that I give you my first entry into my journey to find the skinnier, healthier me. I have know idea how long it's going to take, and I'm not setting a time table for my goal just having the accountability and the desire to get to where I want to be will hopefully be enough.

I am starting a medical weight loss trial that will hopefully help expedite my weight loss. I will be meeting with a nutritionist this week, she will help set out a diet and exercise plan for me. I am participating in a trial for a drug called Liraglutide that is being tested on both obese patients that are not diabetic and also overweight patients who are diabetic. This trial is 56 weeks long and the most recent study, patients who received the drug lost an average of 40 more lbs than the subjects who received the placebo. I am hopeful that I don't get the placebo but even if I do, I am determined that this is my time and I am going to win!

So here today, Saturday July, 30th 2011







Weight - 288.4 lbs
Pant size - 42
Blood pressure - 130/80
BMI - 43.8

Goals
Weight - 175
Pant Size - 34
Bmi - under 27

Rewards for making weight

Finish 3/4 Sleeve tattoo on right arm
Trip to Costa Rica or Hawaii
Buy a Jet Ski
Live beyond 35 years old!

So here goes nothing.

I haven't updated in a while

So I made it safely to Virginia and after a short but excruciatingly terrible unemployed drought, I landed a job at the Crowne Plaza Hotel here in Va Beach. I was initially hired to run their new "Crowne Java" coffee shop, that lasted like 3 days and they decided to pull the plug on the coffee shop. So I was moved to the Banquet dept. After rocking that for about 2 weeks they decided I was better suited in the Bar, so I moved there. About 2 more weeks go by, I recieved a job offer from another place I had previously applied and I accepted it, more money and more and better hrs. So then the dirty crowne said they wanted to make sure I stayed there so they are making me a food and beverage / Banquet manager along with a decent raise and more hours, I'm still pulling a few shifts in the bar a week, as the highest paid bartender. So the work thing is going well. I have met some cool people here which is good. I have been to the beach quite a bit which is awesome. I have also lost over 15 lbs since I moved here, which I'm stoked about. It's been a pain in the ass but well worth it! Can't wait til I can fit into my size 4 dress again LOL. So yeah thats about all for now. Stay tuned for more to come.

CHEERS

CROSS COUNTRY MOVE - DAY'S 2 - 4

So we were able to get our moving truck back from Tremont, Utah and we drove back to Burley Idaho on day 2. Day 3 went fine we took off from Burley and drove to Bend, Or to my moms house a fairly uneventful day THANK GOD. We have spent the last 2 days regrouping and relaxing. My sister had to go back to the ER once we got to Oregon because of her contractions stemming from the accident. I have since come down with a nasty cough from allergies. So I feel like shit. My dad is going to be driving back to VA with me instead of my sister she will fly home when medically cleared. I got to spend some time with Bonny and my buddy Marcus on monday, which happened to be Marcus' birthday so that was kinda cool. I am headed to Portland tomorrow to chill with my buddy Mike. Then we are planning on digging out on Thursday headed for Lava Hot Springs, Idaho or maybe as far as Laramie, Wy. Then eventually headed to Gobles, Michigan to my grandmothers house then to VA. We shall see where we end up along the way. My Nyquill and allergy meds are kicking in so I'm headed to sleep.

Peace n Chicken Grease

CROSS COUNTRY MOVE - DAY 1

So I decided to blog my cross country trip just for fun, ya know just in case anything exciting happened. Well we started off with a bang! We got a late start out of SLC like 4pm by the time we hit the road not 10 or 12 like we wanted to. We were cruising on I - 84 just fine and about the Utah / Idaho border it starts to snow and we slowed down. We were climbing up a hill and we hit black ice. We started to fishtail with our trailer behind the truck and so I corrected and we ended up sliding the other way at which point we went down into the median @ 50 mph and we landed at the bottom trailer intact. We blew 1 tire on truck 1 on trailer and one on my car. I was freaked out, my pregnant sister was super calm. So we called the 24 hr tow ppl this was at 6pm they told us 45 min. we're like OK, not 15 min later we watch an SUV with 5 ppl in it roll twice and so we ran to help them. They were hispanic and I was trying to translate as best I could. We gave them blankets, coats, food, h2o. We waited for the ambulances to arrive and our tow truck too. 2 hrs later or tow arrives. I made my sister get checked out by the EMT on scene and they decided we had to go by ambulance to Burley, Idaho...50+ miles away to the hospital. We then got to spend 3 hrs in the hospital filling out accident reports and making sure the baby was ok. Everything is fine BTW. It turns out there was 7 accidents on that stretch and we were the only ones that didin't roll over. We are now in the Fairfield Hotel in Burley. Len the front desk guy is amazing he let us use the hot tub at 1am even when it closed at 11, AWESOME. My dad is driving from Oregon to come get us tomorrow to go to Utah and get our repaired / replaced truck. I guess well see what happens tomorrow....keep you posted.

COLIN

WHAT THE FUCK AM I DOING

SO ITS ONE MONTH INTO 2009. HERE I SIT, NOT DOING SHIT!! I HAVE ALL THESE HUGE DREAMS AND ASPIRATIONS THAT I WANT TO ACHIEVE AND YET I CONTINUE TO SIT. I AM CURRENTLY IN A SHITTY PLACE IN MY LIFE. I HAVEN'T ACCOMPLISHED A GOD DAMN THING IN THE PAST 3+ YRS THAT I HAVE LIVED IN UTAH. I SIT HERE 37 MONTHS LATER AND LOOK BACK WHAT HAVE I DONE? A SHIT LOAD OF PARTYING AND A LIL SCHOOL. I HAVE MADE SOME FRIENDS, AND LOST SOME FRIENDS. I MET AND LOST THE WOMEN OF MY DREAMS. I HAVE LOST SOME WEIGHT AND GAINED SOME WEIGHT. I HAVE BEEN HAPPY FOR SHORT PERIODS AND SAD FOR LONG PERIODS. I HAVE BEEN REAL AND FAKE.

I SIT HERE AND REFLECT ON WHERE MY LIFE IS AT RIGHT NOW AND I HATE IT!! I WAKE UP GO TO SCHOOL OR WORK OR DON'T LEAVE MY ROOM. I COME HOME OR GO PARTYING. EITHER WAY IT ENDS UP JUST THE SAME. I HAVE BEEN PROCRASTINATING FOR THE PAST 3 YRS ABOUT STARTING MY LIFE. NOW I AM ABOUT TO CHANGE MY SURROUNDINGS AGAIN...AND FOR WHAT? SO I CAN FAKE IT TIL I MAKE IT??? FUCK THAT!!! IF I DON'T CHANGE WHERE MY LIFE IS AT RIGHT NOW I GONNA END UP DEAD. LITERALLY NOT FIGURATIVELY. I HAVE ALL I NEED TO SUCCEED IN LIFE WITH MY BUDDHIST PRACTICE YET I TAKE IT FOR GRANTED DAY IN AND DAY OUT. I GO WEEKS ON END JUST SITTING WAITING AND HOPING MY SITUATION IMPROVES WITHOUT TAKING ANY ACTION.. WHAT KIND OF FANTASY WORLD AM I LIVING IN?? I HAVE KNOWN FOR ALL 23 OF MY YEARS ON THIS EARTH THAT I HAVE THE TOOLS TO CREATE THE FUTURE I WANT FOR MYSLEF AT MY DISPOSAL AND YET I TAKE IT FOR GRANTED EVERY SINGLE DAY. NOW THAT I HAVE REACHED ROCK BOTTOM IT'S TIME TO EITHER PUT UP OR SHUT UP. I HAVE TWO CHOICES IN FRONT OF ME RIGHT NOW. ONE OF THEM WILL LEAD ME DOWN A PATH OF SUCCESS AND UNPRECEDENTED HAPPINESS. THE OTHER WITH LEAD ME TO FAILURE, PAIN AND ULTIMATELY DEATH. NOW WHY ON EARTH WOULD I WANT TO CONTINUE FAILING? BECAUSE THAT IS ALL I'VE KNOWN? BECAUSE THAT'S WHAT I AM COMFORTABLE WITH? THAT'S BULLSHIT!! IF YOU WOULD HAVE ASKED 15 YR OLD COLIN WHERE I WOULD BE IN TEN YEARS? I GUARANTEE HE WOULD NOT HAVE TOLD YOU I'D BE SITTING WHERE I AM TODAY!! HE WOULD SEE ME AND BE DISGUSTED AND YET, 23 YR OLD COLIN IS COMPLACENT WHERE I AM...MAKES SENSE TO ME. IF I DON'T START LIVING DAY IN AND DAY OUT TO THE FULLEST I MAY AS WELL KILL MYSELF. I HAVE NO DESIRE TO KEEP LIVING LIKE THIS. I HAVE GOT TO GET OVER MYSELF AND START MAKING THE DECISIONS THAT WILL HELP MY LIFE INSTEAD OF HURT ME. WHY DO I SELF DESTRUCT? BECAUSE I AM HUMAN, BUT I AM ALSO A BUDDHIST AND I HAVE THE TOOLS TO ETERNALLY HAPPINESS AND INSTEAD OF UTILIZING THEM ON A DAILY BASIS, I CHOOSE TO FAIL AND BECOME A DEPRESSED PERSON. WELL IT'S TIME I DO IT. I HAVE BEEN ALL TALK FOR SO MANY YEARS ITS TIME I STEP UP TO THE PLATE AND BE A MAN. IF MY LITTLE BROTHER CAN MAN UP WHEN HE HAS NEEDED TOO, I SURE AS SHIT BETTER BE ABLE TOO!!!

SO I HAVE DECIDED I AM GOING TO VIRGINIA AND GET A FRESH START. I AM NOT GOING TO BRING LAZY ASS COLIN WITH ME THOUGH. HE IS STAYING IN UTAH. I AM GOING TO USE THE OPPORTUNITY IN FRONT OF ME AS A WAY OUT. THIS TIME I AM NOT GOING TO DIG MYSELF BACK DOWN. I AM GOING TO STAND VICTORIOUS!!! I AM GOING TO BE ABLE TO LOOK BACK IN ANOTHER 37 MONTHS AND SAY "WHAO, I ACTUALLY ACCOMPLISHED WHAT I SET OUT TO DO, 37 MONTHS AGO." I AM GOING TO BE 26 YEARS OLD IN 37 MONTHS AND I CAN EITHER BE A SUCCESSFUL HAPPY 26 YR OLD, OR I CAN BE A SAD, DEPRESSED 26 YR OLD FAILURE. ONLY I HAVE THE CHOICE AND ABILITY TO EFFECT WHICH ONE I AM.

FAILURE IS NOT AN OPTION. I NEED TO BE A MAN JUST LIKE MY 18 YR OLD BROTHER AND I NEED TO TAKE CARE OF NUMERO UNO INSTEAD OF FAKING IT AND HOPING I MAKE IT. I AM GOING TO WIN ON A YEARLY, MONTHLY, WEEKLY, DAILY BASIS. I AM GOING TO BE ABLE TO STAND ON MY OWN TWO FEET AND BE VICTORIOUS.

Inauguration Day 2009

Change, we've heard so much about it for the past 18 months, now we can finally see it happening. This mornings inauguration of our 44st president Barack Obama, is such a significant event. It is the changing of the guard. There are a few dates that stand out in American history. Dec. 7th 1941 - Pearl Harbor Bombing, Nov. 22 1963 - Kennedy Assination, July 16th 1969 - Moon Landing, Sept. 11th 2001, and today Jan. 20th 2009. Today is one of those dates where you remember where you were when. Today's inauguration is such a big event, it ends a 25 year Bush, Clinton strangle hold on american politics. It brings fourth new excitment into the white house. Brack Obama is more like a celebrity then a politician. He gets people young and old excited about the future and the task ahead facing our nation. I for one am so ecstatic about the future of our country. Just listening to his speech this morning gave me chills. We made the right decision in electing Obama.

CHANGE IS HERE!!

INC. WHAT AN INSPIRATION

EVERY MONTH WHEN I RECIEVE MY COPY OF INC. MAGAZINE AND I READ ABOUT ALL THESE RICH YOUNG ENTREPRENEURS AND I GET SO AMP'D. I READ THESE ARTICLES ABOUT THESE 20-40 YR OLDS WHO ARE DOING BIG THINGS WITH THEIR START UPS AND MAKING HUGE PROFITS. LIKE THIS MONTH'S FEATURE, MARKUS FRIND, HE STARTED THE WEBSITE, http://www.plentyoffish.com/ IT'S A DATING SITE, NOTHING SPECIAL, CRUDE DESIGN, BOLD FONTS. THE ONE DIFFERENCE, IT'S FREE. UNLIKE THE MATCH.COM'S OF THE WORLD. THE SITE LOOKS LIKE IT WAS CREATED IN A HIGH SCHOOL COMPUTER CLASS. HIS SITE GENERATES 1.5 BILLION (WITH A B) VIEWS PER MONTH. WITH 10 MILLION USERS AND 800,000 SUCCESSFUL RELATIONSHIPS STARTED, YEAH ITS WORKING! THIS 30 YR OLD WORKS 1 HR A DAY, AND MAKES 10 MILLION BUCKS A YEAR. EVERY MONTH I READ THESE SAME ARTICLES AND I KNOW I CAN DO WHAT THEY DO. I READ MARKUS, MADE $ 800,000 IN 2 MONTHS THANKS TO GOOGLE'S ADSENSE. PLACING LITTLE ADS ON HIS SITE PAYS IM HALF A MILLION DOLLARS A MONTH!! OH MY GOD!!! SO I AM DETERMIND TO START MY SITE UP. I WILL BE USING THIS BLOG TO UPDATE PROGRESS ON MY SITE. PLEASE SUBSCRIBE AND FOLLOW THIS JOURNEY THAT HOPEFULLY ENDS IN A SWIMMING POOL FULL OF SACAGAWEA'S

CHEERS